It turns out that my health problems are much more serious than everyone has thought so far. The measures that have been recommended to me, and that I've taken, have helped somewhat, but not nearly enough. This I learned from two things, which come from one source. The first indication came from taking a foot bath in Epsom salt, which I did to aid in detoxing. It turns out that it has magnesium in it, and my body is still in such need of it that all I soaked in the foot bath, (foot and ankle,) swelled up quite a bit and turned white because my body was soaking up the magnesium. This isn't even reported on the internet. In fact, Epsom salt is supposed to REDUCE swelling. But so much magnesium was entering my body from it that I swelled up quite a bit. It was recommended I take a full bath in it to get better benefits, but imagine how swollen I would be from that! lol It's just crazy. I'm considering it still. And this absorption apparently only happens when the situation is serious. So that was my first indication.

The second was a combination of increased fatigue, need of sleep, sleeplessness, (all three of which independently are separate symptoms and for different reasons,) getting much more emotional and stressed, increased mental fogginess, and increased light sensitivity and eye strain.

I'm doing more research on all my problems, and am finding that my health could be in serious danger if it continues like this. If left untreated, it could lead to: heart attacks, strokes, type 2 diabetes, vision loss, Addison's disease, more miscarriages, depression, chronic fatigue syndrome, fybromyalsia, obesity, cancer, and on and on the list goes. I probably would die from all this if I let it keep on wreaking havoc upon my body. BUT, lol, those things are years away, and I'm putting a stop to it now... or am trying to figure out how to.

I need more severe measures to get on top of all this mess. And I'm getting impatient with the slower, "healthier" approaches. *sigh* I don't want to harm my body in trying to fix it, but I want it all fixed NOW! lol If I got a magnesium IV drip weekly and took other more extreme measures I could be "fixed" in a few months. I don't know if I would need that serious of measures, but I'm so exasperated with it all I almost want it. And ya know what? I've discovered that it's a well-known fact that conventional medicine doesn't even acknowledge these problems because MY GLANDS STILL FUNCTION! If they got so bad they STOPPED, or nearly stopped, then I'd have Addison's and what have you and could then get prescriptions for things that would harm me in other ways, though potentially helping me in some. A doctor would tell me I'm fine when I'm not, in other words. And so my testing myself like a guinea pig is the only way, apparently. That's how you treat these things at this stage. But all the supplements I maybe should take would add up to be a butt-load. My head's a whirl with the symphony that is bodily processes. I'm going to need diagrams and stuff to help me keep it all straight.

And do you know what's possibly the most sucky part of all of this? The fact that, in addition to my low-functioning pituitary gland, MY FAMILY AND ALL THE JERKS IN MY PAST CAUSED THIS!!! I even found a thing today saying that women who were sexually abused as children could get Adrenal Insufficiency as a result of the stress and pain from that ALONE. As many of you know, I was molested in second grade, and also got taken advantage of in lesser ways sexually two other times. Then you add to that growing up with my father beating my mother, living in a women's shelter for a bit, being poor and on welfare, having a negligent mother, being targeted by many's anger and issues throughout my life, being daily tormented by my sister to very great degrees, being walked on and continually made a scapegoat by all my family who would gang up on me when I didn't do a thing, having to raise myself in many ways, being harassed for my religious views for years, dealing with insecurity so great I'd literally shake from it at times, striving for true purpose in life, growing spiritually more than most people ever have and dealing with the trials involved in all that, (I'm not boasting when saying that,) being in utter agony out of feeling unloved and in lacking physical affection, (which resulted in many nights where I bawled, hugged, rocked and caressed myself in a little ball on my bed, crying so hard I felt almost like throwing up at times,) and all the other crap I've been through.

Medically I shouldn't exercise or listen to heavy metal- that would stress my adrenals and help deplete my magnesium further. But gosh darn it, if I want to sing loudly and passionately to Audioslave I'm going to! lol And the sucky thing about not being able to exercise is that because of my hypothyroidism, toxicity, constipation, emotionalism, etc, I've got excess fat on me. Because of these issues by body can't burn the food I take in, or the excess fat already on me. Royal suckage. And as a result of these issues I get sugar, chocolate and saturated fat cravings. I haven't noticed the salt cravings they say I could have. Apparently I need more salt because of these things too.

It's all a big mess, and my getting upset about it like I am just makes it worse! lol I'm supposed to relax to preserve my precious glands. URGGG!!!!! lol *shakes head* Screw everyone!!! lol Help me! And part of the cause of all these issues is the GREED OF CORPORATIONS AND FAT CATS. *shudder* Evil is so... evil. Not only the people in my personal life have contributed to it all, but also those who suck the magnesium out of the "healthy" food in our grocery stores, suck the nutrients out of the farm soil, deposit toxins in to the air, the water, the food, the earth, and surround all of nature with toxic and deadly synthetic chemicals. Wow am I starting to sound like a crazy environmentalist. But it's all true... horrifyingly true. It's the scariest thing I've ever heard of. Demons are nothing compared to the dangers all this greed and stupidity are causing. lol Well, maybe that's not quite correct. BUT CLOSE! lol I swear it! RUN FOR YOUR LIVES!

I'm ranting way too much. I apologize. If you've read all of this so far, then please try to learn from it all. I'm upset for good reason, and you can save yourself and others from such things. The main lesson here is to love others and respect the way God created the universe. Don't mess with people's hearts or with nature. Death and suffering WILL follow if you do.

URG! LoL